The mask

The study room was no longer a study room. Over the last few months, it essentially became a store room. Being a weekend, I decided to restore parity. I pounced upon my old briefcase with power ranger stickers on. It was my old school briefcase.

In my teens, I used it as my collection of precious possessions. It was essentially a box of my achievements. It did not have any sad moments saved up in it. It reminded me of all the people who share only fun moments on social media. It is human nature to store positive memories. It’s probably because negative memories stay forever. Positive ones remain but are ones which we consciously prefer to recollect again and again.

I was rummaging through the entire bundle of my school progress reports, reading through performance assessment verdicts given by my class teachers. It’s been 15 years since I left school.

I opted for medicine. It’s been a long, tiring, difficult, determined journey. Healthcare brings about multitude of human interactions. We meet people, both in and out of the workplace, be it colleagues, working staff or patients and their relatives.

The journey has been much more than illness and cure. As a person working in the healthcare system in India for the past 8 years in my field of radiology, I can fairly say it is a grim picture.

When I took up this profession, irrespective of the hippocratic oath, what mattered to me was that we deal with humans, who come to us for some help to restore their lives. I did my training keeping in mind no harm should be done to the patient. Harm doesn’t confine itself to physical form. The socioeconomic harm is also very relevant.

Just like fans look up to celebrities either in the film industry or sports, patients look up to doctors of great repute as people with a good percentage bet of restoring health. What irks me though is identifying the contrare from the inside.

What short term gains do doctors look for by exploiting patients? The arrival of Dr. Google has to a small extent put a dent into the money mongering tactics of doctors. Patients are not that illiterate of their illness, though a good percentage of people continue to know nothing about illness other than what is told to them by doctors.

Since it is a matter of health, provoking the proverbial death mongers fear. I have seen many patients putting themselves out there to more investigations and tests merely because of the fear instilled in them by another peer doctor.

So the question is, whom do we rely on? How do we know if the doctor is saying the real thing? Or cooking up a plot to thicken up his wallet?

I have only one message for these doctors. Remember. The present might seem rosy with what you do. Kicking ethical practice into the dustbin will come to haunt you. The right have nothing to fear. The wrong runs on fear.


Quality Care or Business Conglomerate?

Day 34

There is a fine balance on when one should listen to the heart and when to the brain. As I was drawing to the close of another day at work, I was wondering, are we really the ‘most literate’ state in India?

I was imploding last evening, unable to tolerate the basic mannerisms of some of the people involved in ‘health care’.

Bound by the Hippocratic Oath, and as my HOD says, Do NO HARM. But to sit idle and be an accomplice to unethical practice is not right and it is important we, the people in this industry, realize the value of our jobs.

Have decided to take it upon myself to do something, no matter how little it is. I shall not sit back and be a part of this dereliction of duty. Time to positively influence myself into the system, there is a lot of work to be done and I have miles to go and I shall not sleep until I am at peace..



First movie after a 3 month break and what a WAY to start 2011. Listening to a random Good morning Kerala Interview couple of days back on Indiavision,  wherein one of the casts of the film was being interviewed, just left me a little curious on what this movie is all about.

This movie centres around a sequence of events, occurring at a Traffic Island in the heart of Ernakulam, over a span of 12 hours on a September 16. Raihan [Vineeth Srinivasan] has jus gotten into a new job as a journalist at IndiaVision and is about to do his first interview – of the Movie superstar Siddharth [Rahman].  Dr. Abel [Kunchako Boban] has just purchased a new Swift to surprise his wife Shwetha [Remya Nambeeshan] on their 1st wedding anniversary. Sudevan [Sreenivasan] is a clean police constable who recently got suspended for accepting a bribe and is finding ways to clear his name and reputation.

The chain of events kick off with Raihan’s interview with Siddharth being preponed, so he decides to hitch a ride with his friend Rajeev [Asif Ali] to get to the news station ASAP. All it took is a random speeding vehicle which whizzed past at a red signal to knock them off their bike and leaving Raihan fatally injured. His imminent death is interwoven with the chronic illness [heart disease] of Siddharth’s daughter whose life could be saved if an immediate heart transplant is done.

The movie thrives on the impossible mission of trying to get Raihan’s heart from Lakeshore hospital in Ernakulam to Ahalya hospital in Palakkad, a journey of 150 km, to be completed within 2hours! The background score has a more lasting impression merely due to the wonderful script where we eagerly wait to see the mission completed. The movie bluntly deals with the inadequacies of our roads and the bribery of our Indian system, how politicians and men in power misuse the Govt. services to their use and yet they are not willing to help out the common man.

On a parallel track runs 2 stories – Dr. Abel finding out about his wife cheating with his best friend and the anger and the anguish he feels when he finds out about the infidelity. Medical ethics are also prodded and probed a bit on where exactly do we define – Saving a life or Ending one.

It’s a brilliant work by the writers Bobby and Sanjay. A very realistic approach, makes you feel at home with Rajesh Pillai’s direction, so much so that when you leave the theatre, you will feel a little more responsible next time you hit the road.  Coincidence or not that his movie has released just after we Celebrated Road Safety Week.

The ensemble of cast in this movie is brilliant. Considering almost all spend an equal amount of screen time, its clearly evident how strong some of the actors are.  My most riveting moment was Raihan’s mom reflecting over his interview on her mobile and where she sits beside him in the ICU. So subtle with emotions and yet one could feel a mother’s love.

The future of Malayalam industry is bright, if and only if we grow out of the shadows of the “Superstars” where stories aren’t made to suit them rather actors tune themselves into a good script!

I will not go on and on with spoilers, cause this movie is worth every penny.


  • Asif Ali, Sai Kumar, Kunchako Boban and Anoop Menon are the strong performers in addition to Sreenivasan and Rahman.
  • Go and watch this movie. At a time when posters are often misleading [on a first look, it seems like a college goers movie]. It has got it all. A perfect mix of emotions and guaranteed you will find yourself applauding at some of the most electrifying moments in the 2 hours.